As I sit here, I am a little under 20 days away from travelling halfway across this beautiful blue marble to attend my yoga teacher training. I am reading the texts that have been assigned, studying anatomy, gaining inspiration from others who have gone on this journey and preparing myself logistically with visa information, packing lists and double- and triple-checking my flights and accommodations.
I made the leap in December 2013 from working 80+ hours per week and being on the road 80 percent of the time delivering diversity and inclusion trainings for a nonprofit to focusing solely on preparing for this next adventure. That meant being home and not having a job to go to every day. Instead, I’ve been going to the yoga studio every day! It has been a wonderful, scary and inspirational transition and I am so grateful to have this opportunity in front of me! I have seen support from the people I love the most and received quizzical looks from those who aren’t sure how to “label” me at this time. At times over the past three months, I haven’t even been sure how to label myself!
For now, in this moment, labels are beside the point. As I am learning through my reading and reflections, labels are ways in which we make sense of the world around us. They serve a purpose and allow us to categorize and define – not only others – but ourselves in meaningful ways. Labels can also be harmful, however, and can serve to keep us locked into spaces and places that might not be serving us (or allowing us to serve) in the best of ways.
As I transition, I find myself working to be more patient. It’s like when we transition from one yoga pose to the next. The goal is not to rush the transition, but to revel in it. To explore and search out the juicy bits throughout the flow. The same goes for our lives off the mat as well. As we transition from one task to the next, from one job to another, from day into night, from work to home – are we revelling in the juicy bits? Are we savouring those moments of “in between?”
While I focus on preparing to leave for Bali, I am working to savour. To taste each part of this journey and to breathe through the transition.
Bo Forbes writes…
Transitional times are paradoxical: often deeply unsettling, they contain unlimited possibilities for transformation. Because transitions bring so much unrest, they tend to be places where we’re apt to lose embodied awareness, to go on autopilot. If we do, we miss a valuable opportunity: to connect with and ground into our deepest self. Think for a moment of your life off the mat: are you in the midst of a transitional phase of any sort? And what does this transition – or transitions in general – feel like for you? Do you tend to become ‘lost’ in transition and unsure of yourself, as though you’re waiting for something to happen? How easy is it to stay connected to your centre during transitional times?
Some heavy reflection, indeed. I know that I certainly go on autopilot for a while. I want to make things as easy as possible and put pressure on myself to deny the transition. My common response when people ask how I’m doing in transition is to say, “I’m fine!” even though I may be in pain, sad or just plain scared out of mind. It is so important to recognize our habits so that we may reflect on them and work to alleviate our own barriers in the course of change.
How do you handle change? Let me know by leaving a post below! Did this resonate with you? What kinds of transitions are you going through?